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01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I love ice cream
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse sometimes
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I have a nice smile
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 % safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I have a lot of friends
50. I have made out with someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my Xanga
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama the play kind
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently like someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am shy around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson's music
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I like surveys
100. I am happy at this moment
101. I'm obsessed with guys
102. I am bi
103. Democrat
104. Conservative Republican
105. I am punk rockish
106. I am preppy
107. I go for older guys/girls
108. I study for tests most of the time
109. I tie my shoelaces differently to anyone I've ever met
110. I can work on a car
111. I love my job
112. I am comfortable with who I am right now
113. I have more than just my ears pierced
114. I walk barefoot wherever I can
115. I have jumped off a bridge
116. I love sea turtles.
117. I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup
118. I believe in prophetic dreams
119. I plan on achieving a major goal/dream
120. I am proficient on a musical intrument
121. I worked at McDonald's restuarant
122. I hate office jobs
123. I love sci-fi movies
124. I've never been in love
125. I think water rules
126. I want to go to college out of state
127. I am adopted
128. I like sausage
129. I am a pyro
130. I love the Red Sox
131. I have thrown up from crying too much
132. I can make my tongue do the wave
133. I hate George W. Bush
134. I actually write well
135. I dislike mainstream thoughts and products
136. I am listening to music that was made before 1980
137. I wish someone would say I'm beautiful, just once, and mean it, and say it because they were thinking it. Not because someone told them to say it or whatever. Because they thought that instead
138. I am uberly cool
139. I love the OC
140. I love to ride snowmobiles
141. I have made out under the stary sky
142. Music often gets me away from it all
143. I have more friends of the oppostie sex than of the same
144. I'm attracted to younger guys/girls ... Age is just a number... but not gross younger...
145. I'm afraid of medication
146. I do not fit into any stereotype or clique very well
147. I would date someone of another race
148. I have mastered the slow clap
149. I love to fish
150. I am a Redneck
151. I think they should teach Creation in public schools
152. I hate my school
153. I want to travel all over the world
154. I am willing to explain my behavior
155. I do not have a favorite color
156. I have a "Family" section on my buddy list
157. I know someone who is racist
158. I have to have a blanket to sleep.
159. My parents have forced me into playing a sport
160. I've been payed for my good grades
161. I crush easily
162. I believe you can find someone attractive but not be attracted to them
163. I had/have had braces for over 3 years
164. I haves useless talents
165. I want to get married before I'm 25
166. I have been in a fist fight
167. I have played a sport for over 5 years
168. I have a lot of clothes that I never wear
169. I feel insecure around new people
170. Harder rock music can make me cry over emo music
171. I have told a friend who I liked and then that friend went out with them
172. I hate rejection
173. I am a vegetarian/vegan
174. I have worn shorts all year round
175. I'd should of been/rather be home schooled
176. I'm not afraid to die
177. I dont like people who remind me of myself.
178. Im allergic to food(s)
179. I don't type normal english/grammar
180. I don't understand internet dating
181. I love it how people say they dont like drama but they watch Laguna Beach/Real World/other drama shows
182. I have over 15 cds
183. I have an xanga and a livejournal
184. I have a bolt and a myspace
185. I have a picture up on buddypic.com or another rating website.
186. I dont leave my house without a watch
187. I go to church every Sunday
188. Im a slightly different person when I like/am attracted to someone
189. Im always the one who is worried about getting feelings returned in a relationship
190. I become jealous very easily
191. I do not think before I talk
192. One of my parents have died
193. I have had many pets
194. I like the beach
195. I hate rollercoasters
196. I get motion sickness/car sick
197. I have a poor immune system
198. I'd like to go back in time to change my mistakes
199. Many memories to me are vague
200. I keep useless things/letters/etc cause they mean a lot to me

Over the past few days I have joined a bunch of volunteer activites, which makes me happy. I joined Big Brothers Big Sisters (which I am most excited about), Circle K, the American Red Cross, Habitat for Humanity, ECO, and tutoring at the Salvation Army. That should keep me busy for a while. Other than that not much has been going on. I have a bunch of tests coming up, so I am a little nervous! My computer was woah messed up for a while, but I fixed it! (Jeremy and Jill spent a bunch of time helping me out... thanks guys!!) I am super excited to be a Big! I'm going to paint her nails and we're going to go shopping and it is going to be fun! I turned in my first English paper, and I think it was horrible, so that kinda sucks. But maybe everyone else's was more horrible so mine will be okay. I dunno... I'm really bored right now and there's nothing to do. I was angry earlier, so I went to Giant Eagle in the dark and it was scary. But I got cookies and swiss rolls and raisen bran, because food equals happiness. I don't think I'm going home this weekend. I miss everyone from home, and a lot of the people I would want to see would be home, but theres a ton of stuff going on up here, and I have tests to study for and stuff.... But I love ya'll from home! Halloween is in 38 days... omgosh... is this saturday the third Saturday? I hope not because then I would be missing Rocky Horror and then I would be mad. Oh, I guess it's the fourth Saturday, so it's okay. Happy Halloween in 38 days!

I had so much work to do today. So at 1:00 I went to go work on a physics project. That took, oh an hour... but I was at this girl's house until about 5 because we played Zelda and bonded and such. So I was like oh I still have pleanty of time to do my work. We went to dinner, and Jill decided she wants to take a walk. They drag me along, saying it'll only be a half an hour. We stumble across this awesome car show and spend a while there, so we get back to the dorms at uh...8. Bhen I really didn't want to do work, so we went to Jer's and watched Boondock Saints. Jer liked it, but Jill and Andi didn't. I don't know how you couldn't like that movie. But we have decided to go to church tomorrow, so I am really happy. I heart church. So that's all. Jeremy still has my CDs. hmph

Today was a very good day. Besides those stupid classes I have to go to... but anyway. One of my ex's IMs me out of nowhere and we get to talking. He seems like he is really having a good time and has grown a lot as a person, which makes me happy. Because he really is a good guy. So I'm really glad he IMed me, because he's the person I'm most comfortable with in the whole entire world, and now I can talk to him again (after about a year of not talking to him) Also, a friend of mine is going to take swing dancing lessons with me. It should be very fun. (I probably won't spin him into a bush like I did to you, Lyssa) But I am in a very good mood. I got a 100% on my second physics quiz, and finished my math project. I'm going to bed now, night all!!

I've been trying to do some soul searching, but it hasn't been going very well. I really cannot figure out why people like me. I mean, it's not like I'm a horrible person or anything, but why do people like people in general? What makes one person more appealing than another? There are tons of people out there smarter, wittier, sweeter, funnier, and nicer than I. So where do all these awesome friends that I have come from? I guess its because we're all a little nuts. That must be it...

I got really upset today because I got a 90% on my first quiz in physics. It was on a stupid fucking problem too, where I just didn't read all the choices and the last choice was "all of the above" Hatred. Then I was mad because I suck at writing. And now I'm mad because I want a nice boy. And there are none. NO SMART, FUNNY, NUTS, SEMI-DECENT BOYS. And I don't want to go home this weekend. And I can't stop coughing. And it's hot. HATE HATE HATE. K I'm done.

I am really glad I found the group of friends I did. I had the best luck with friends in high school, and now I have good luck in college too. A lot of people from 'sock are having trouble finding a group of friends, and I've made some amazing friends already! We're all dorky and stuff, and go jumping in fountains and go to GINTAGL (<-- Giant Eagle) at like 10pm and get oreos and icecream and shitloads of junk food we probably don't need. And they're all nice and crazy and practically perfect in every way. I'm just glad I have my Jilly Billy Goat and Andi especially, because they can never hide from me. Even if they wanted to, I'd just sit outside their doors waiting for tem to come out... haha! I love you guys!! AND I still love all ya'll from high school (BRANDI ANDY MARY MEGGIE RAPTIS LYSSA)I might not go home for labor day tho, because I cannot find a ride anywhere :( I hope everyone is doing well with classes and socializing and no one is getting into too much trouble. I think about ya'll all the time, and pray for your adjustments to college :) LOVIES

So, College is basically the funnest thing ever. We play BINGO and have Casino Night....haha. Well more fun than that we sing "Doncha wish your girlfriend was hott like me" and talk to random boys that come into our rooms at like midnight. AND sing Celine Dion. and draw penises on our whiteboards on the doors. But I'm dead tired and I have to get up at 8:30, so I'm going to bed.

I've been at college 2 days now, and it is simply amazing. I am also amazed at how many people from back home have put things about me in their profs and left me voicemails and stuff. I really miss you guys too. But I am having a great time at college. Today a group of us went to Walmart and bought Twister to play outside. Good stuff. We've all bonded and stuff. It's amazing how quickly you become friends with people! But I still love ya'll from back home! :) That's all, I have a class at 9 so it's sleepy time <3

Today was quite possibly my favorite day ever.  Around 2 Raptis and I went to McDonalds and got some boxes to slide down this big hill.  So we get to this big hill, and we slide down it like 10 times.  It was a huge-ass hill.  Super steep.  So then we decide, hey it'll be fun to roll down the big-ass hill.  Yeah, that hurt like a mother fucker.  We both got really scraped up, but it was SO fun.  There was a baseball team practicing, and we were screaming as we were rolling down the hill, because we were like getting air and shit, and when we were done this one guy was like "are you guys ok?" haha.  So then we went to the creek to go swimming, but it started to rain.  So we got out of the creek, and it stopped raining.  We're driving along, and Steph sees a big grasshopper on her windsheild, so she turns on her windsheild wipers to get it off.  The thing flies off her windshield and into her car, and she FLIPS OUT.  She's like swearving all over the road, and I finally get her to pull over and calm down.  But I saw my life flash before my eyes.  We then went to the bikepath to take a walk.  We had chalk with us, and we were "vandalizing" under the bridges and stuff (I know, we're bad ass)  Anyway, we passed a corn field, and stopped and ate corn right off the plant, which was pretty good, but a little grainy.  We ended up at a park, and see-sawed for a while. It starts thundering, so we decide to head back, but we're pretty far away from her car.  So we get DREANCHED.  We were completely soaked and the rain was freezing.  Then we decide to have a chalk fight, which is basically where you get chalk and make it the consistancy of paint by drawing on wet cement, thentry to get it all over each other.  We were covered in chalk when we were done.  It was amazingly fun.  We had to wash off, so we went to McDonald's again and used the outside spicket to wash off.  Then we went to Steph's favorite spot and did our nails.  We went to Alyssa's and played "what if" and a few other games.  It was a simply amazing day.  Oh, and we called everyone in our cell phones to find out what the word "habitoela" means, turns out it means green bean.  Haha. I got home around one, and as I was walking in the door, Andy called.  We talked til about 3, and here I am.  :)

Today I decided to become unlazy, and hung out with a few people. Mary and I had a picnic at the park and then played in the creek for awhile. I always love my time spent with Mary because we have the best conversations, whether we are talking about God, college, or bunnies (I don't know, bunnies are supposed to equal something frivilous) Then I worked for a while. After that Alyssa and Raptis and I hung out. We just have tons of fun together. So I've begun to again realize how much I'm going to miss my friends. We played a Disney Trivia game (which I won), but we had so much fun doing it. I hope that maybe I just will always be blessed with fun friends, and that I can find as good of friends in college as I had in high school. I'm sure I will, but there's always that slight possibility that I won't. We just..don't have drama and always have fun, and are very comfortable around each other. And, I want a boy. I want a romantic, caring, intelligent, funny, charming, and interesting guy. That likes to play. Is that too much to ask? I hope not.

I have come to realize I count on Brandi for a lot of my amusement.  She's always around and I can always just call her and hang out.  Since she's in Canada this week, I haven't been doing much.  It's like I don't want to call other people to hang out, because I'm so comfortable with her and don't really have to have anything in mind to do to hang out with her.  I really like being comfortable.  Going to college = new people = not comfortable.  Oh pooh.  But geting out of my comfort zone usually leads to something good for me.  So I still can't wait.  Haha, that's all. 

I leave for college in 12 days.  I am so excited, and I have already met some awesome people.  A month ago I was really sad to leave everyone from Loyalsock, but since then I've just become more excited as the days have passed.  But today I've gotten a pang of sadness again.  I really miss being Jake's best friend.   I hardly know him anymore, and we used to be like the straight Will and Grace.  I'm afraid everyone is going to become like that.  I'm pretty sure we will.  But by then I probably won't even care.  None of us will care.  So it's kind of like 12 years of making friends and being nice to all these people was worthless.  Oh, that sounded very pessemistic.  We'll have memories I guess.  And being nice is always a good thing.  So it wasn't all pointless.  I just really want to be in college and get situated.